Thursday, April 17, 2014

Is there ever a good time?

I have been wanting to get back into lifestyle blogging for a while, but there never seems to be a good time... especially since I haven't been blogging for awhile.  Just jumping into a blog post about the latest craft project, new home d├ęcor, or most recent episode of a violent stomach bug after months of being MIA just seems a little strange to me.

Even now it seems a little absurd to write about any of that trivial stuff so soon after the recent passing of my husband's grandmother.  Even though she was not my grandmother by blood, I loved her dearly; and being that I literally moved away from everything and everyone I knew to build a brand new life with my husband in his hometown, next door to his parents and grandparents, this sweet lady was part of the fabric of my everyday life.  

Last year we laid Pawpaw to rest on Good Friday and our hearts were grieved.  This year we will lay Mawmaw to rest on Good Friday as well and the grief reaches a whole new level.  I never dreamed we would be saying goodbye to her so soon.  So many things I thought she would be here for: Aubrey Lane's dance recital, Jude's amazing progress, having her over for dinner in the "big white house" we are planning on building, the possible arrival of a third baby one day, and so much more. 

My heart is heavy, but I am so thankful for the time we did have.  She was there at the church when I took her family's last name, at the hospital to hold both of my newborn babies, and on her front porch just about everyday when Aubrey Lane and I would go check the mail or get Jude off the bus, and so many special everyday moments. 

That brings me back to the blogging about all the trivial stuff... but it's not really trivial is it?  It's my life all written down in this blog- when I choose to blog.  These precious little everyday moments that seem trivial are so important.  Looking back on them brings comfort and happiness and peace, especially during these tender times of grief and celebration of life. 

So there is always a good time to start blogging again... and maybe it's today. 

"Let not your heart be troubled; you believe in God, believe also in Me.  In My Father's house are many mansions; if it were not so, I would have told you.  I go to prepare a place for you.  And if I go and prepare a place for you, I will come again and receive you to Myself; that where I am there you may be also."
                                                                     John 14:1-3