Unglued

Once upon a Christmas time, I was hurrying through a Christian book store searching for a couple gifts. In the midst of it, I picked up a book that had been capturing my attention for a while. It was Unglued; a book for women with emotional freak-out issues.  I almost put the book back, but saw it was on sale and said why not.

The next day, I felt the need to clean my house really well so that the chaos of the coming presents and toys didn't seem overwhelming.  And I get down to the very last step I do- vacuuming.  Well as I vacuumed, smoke and an awful stench began to rise from the vacuum. After about an hour of cleaning it and adjusting the belt (with the help of my husband), I tried again with the exact same result.

No biggie.  I'd been wanting a new vacuum for a while.  And I hate carpet anyway.

Well on Christmas Eve, the dear hubby and I ran to the Gates of Hell, better known as Walmart, for a couple last minute things.  On the way, we were discussing vacuums: Rainbow vacuum for lifetime, or cheaper model now (like a Shark in my mind, but obviously not Lane's) and a Central Vac when we build.  Well Lane suggested that we just get a $50 vacuum for now.

And I lost it.

I got in a really bad mood and picked a fight with Lane.  But the real problem was this: I felt like a $50 vacuum wouldn't really get my carpet clean. Which I hate the carpet anyway, which always feels and looks dirty no matter what.  But it's that way because my house is never really clean BECAUSE I'M JUST A MESS MYSELF!!  

Phew!

This is a daily routine for me.  Over sensitive outburst or complete freak outs when chaos arrives- and there is always chaos because I have two little kids. 

Can I get an AMEN?

Then yesterday, you don't even want to know the conversation that I had with my dear hubby after having both kids in a busy fabric store when he was supposed to have them but went duck hunting instead...

All that fussing that seemed so justified at the time, left me feeling awful about myself.  My children are growing and forming memories of me.  I don't want this behavior to be in those memories.  But I'm so exhausted all the time of trying to bite my tongue and smile and be a good person.

Needless to say, it was time to pick up the book.  I was addicted the minuted I read the subtitle.

"Making Wise Decisions in the Midst of Raw Emotions"

I can't wait to get further in the book and work on some "imperfect progress."

Now the exciting part.  YAY!

I have really felt motivated the past few years to host some sort of Christian book club, supper club, study, small group... just something.  A source of encouragement, accountability, and fellowship for us and other women or couples.  But there was always two problems.

1. Time
After attending church, choir, bible study, playgroups, who had time to get together or the extra money to pay a sitter if they could find the time?

2. Place
My house is painfully tiny (yay for building soon) to host maybe more than 2 or 3 people max.  And it's rarely clean enough for me to let people in the front door anyway.

Then last night, a few of my Instagram darlings showed a great interest in the book and I jokingly mentioned an IG book club.  And people were actually interested!  

So here is my chance.  

I will be hosting my first Christian book club here on my blog! 

How great is that?  I know I have all of about 10 readers, but I wanted to extend the invite out to you as well.  Participate, share, encourage, be encouraged, have accountability all in the convenience of your own couch.  

And, of course, my first book will be Unglued by Lysa TerKeurst.

I'll be doing chapter by chapter right here on the blog.  So if you are interested, let me know, and then run out and get the book.  Buy it.  Download it. Go get it and let's get started!!!

P.S. There is also a study for this book, but baby steps...